The mental outpourings and general happenings of an awesome and super hot guy from Canberra!

Where is the point? I feel as though I've tried and it's all falling apart. The truth is, I can't even see evidence of my having tried. I know I did, but I hid. I suppressed it all, and I hid. It was easy. Easier to hide and rpetend everything was okay than to risk the wrath of getting it wrong in the fixing.
Should I have opened up? My vision may be poor, but my hindsight is as good as any, and better than most. My learning, however, is not so shiny.
Betrayal is what i feel I accomplished. I was entrusted with a great many things and I have failed in the duties with which I was charged. To protect and to nurture, and I failed in these things. How I may right this wrong is a wonder that eats at my time, and my conscience. I know not if I am able, yet if try I don't then never will I be forgiven.
There must be a way, but from whence it came, and to where it leads I do not know.
I hope that I can find it, even if it too late, if I can find it then I'll know where to look next time. Should I be granted a next time? Perhaps. It is up for them to decide.
In the meantime I'l wallow for a time, and then ensure that I ruin no one else.

-Mitch